i cant...

i always said awards and the amount werent important but suju took dbsks record
i just feel its really suspicious is all
i mean
its sujus last year so it makes elfs happy
and plus it allows sme to degrade tvxq a little like 'see theyre not all that'
leaving a path for exo their next 'greatest band'
god
i feel like im the only one seeing this but srsly its so plain to see!
*sigh*
i feel bad though
like
'if dbsk didnt break up suju wouldnt have gotten all those awaards my boys wouldve gotten them for sure'
yes its true and yes elfs know that to that is why deep down in most elf hearts theyre glad my boys broke up
i understand them
i understand the suju boys deserve spotlight too also
but
MY boys
they are the best
they are the greatest
i love THEM most of all
and i KNOW
they deserved atleast 1 win this year
but suju got like 4 wons instead so they could beat dbsks record by 1!
this is just...
im sry elfs
but its obvious what has happened
im sad and mad my boys didnt get anything

still thinking about this after so long... gosh

i know awards dont even mean much but still...

and to think about the boys feelings and such the suju and dbsk boys...

but

i have to look at it like this

who rly deserved the awards

i think suju did desrve some spotlight

finally its sujus turn

i know elfs i know

but

my boys deserved to win too

Homin AND jyj its like they are being pushed out from the mainstream music industry

Homin arent being strong enough opponents (smes faaauuuult)

and JYJ are being blocked

this is so not fair

plus
my boys are getting older too

they are hurting too

they deserve it

an award or something to show that theyve worked hard

they are heaven sent

my 5 boys are

they deserve it

theyve worked really hard

and they will keep working hard

and doing their best

because they are dong bang shin ki

goodnight