"Here are TVXQ, puppets made of lies, but they are able to be by our side.
Here are TVXQ, bluebirds of truth, but they are unable to be by our side.
Which TVXQ do you want?"
These were the first words that i read when i opened yet another old Cassiopeia letter...
the first thoughts
GOD I HATE THEM
I HATE DBSK
i hate how much im hurt by them
i hate how much my heart is effected by them
i hate them for making me love them so much
homin "puppets made of lies"
and
jyj "blue birds of truth"
homin, you guys, why are you puting up with SME?
why are you guys still there?!
i SCREAM in my head at them.
but the answer is simple FOR US.
"puppets made of lies, but they are able to be by our side."
by staying, by obeying they were able to stay by us. be shown to us and entertain us. its all for us.
and i think in my head I HATE IT I HATE IT! stop doing this to yourselves!
do you think that this type of selfless act makes us happy? that we like to see you so much that we would think its okay if you suffer?
i want you to be happy. happy. BE HAPPY! BE SELFISH! please please PLEASE.
then theres
jyj you guys left sme.
"bluebirds of truth, but they are unable to be by our side."
you knew that because of the lawsuit you might not be able to be stars anymore. that you might leave us. but you still filed the lawsuit. you still did. you weighed us against your own freedom and your freedom won against us.
SELFISH. you didnt think about us. you thought about yourselves. you knew we might be stripped from you and yet you left.
and then my reaction was
THANK YOU
i love you 5 so much that logic doesnt even make sense
all i see are 5 guys that i love so much trying to make the right decisions in their lives
homin
THANK YOU for sacrificing even now for us. staying in SME even just to keep us happy even just to keep the name alive... you know, i want you to know IT MEANS SO MUCH TO US. THANK YOU. no matter how much i agree or disagree with your decision, you thought it was the best decision for you and i see why so THANK YOU.
jyj
THANK YOU after 7 years of suffering you finally came out and said 'enough!' you spoke out when others were scared. you stood up for yourselves. THANK YOU. by standing up for yourselves you stood up for so many others and also for people in future generations of kpop. THANK YOU. no matter how much i agree or disagree with your decision, you thought it was the best decision for you and i see why so THANK YOU.
i love them so much and i see that on both sides there was a degree of what each were willing to give up and what each were willing to give. both sides have such good morals. they really tried their best to do whats right. they really tried their best. and DBSK being a group that have every member from different backgrounds with different points of view, of course they would have different values too.
you can judge one side or the other all you want for their decisions but it all comes down to this.
each and every one of them stood up for what they believe. each and every one. no one is a small child that knows nothing. they are all smart men who are able to think for themselves.
i love them all so much. I LOVE THEM.
all i want to say now is that its not that all this is my opinion rather i want to say that i want to see everything from all the angles possible.
i dont want to make up delusions based on delusions but think about what have ACTUALLY been said or shown.
okay rant time now so dont read this part if you can help it
i read somewhere about changmin wanting yunho for himself thats why he forced yunho to stay...
i think thats bull
this is all based on what you think and no actual facts or even idk bodily suggestions to this so im sorry...
im a major major yunjae fanatic but im not one of those 'oh yunjae broke up thats why dbsk broke up' people either
i think thats rediculous, i mean think about it, dbsks bonds so weak that a break up would break up all of dbsk? oh please...
you know what i think?
i think the problem happened between yunho and yoochun
during the 2008 awards where changmin cried i really thought they were gonna group hug but yunhos arms were around changmin and jaejoong and he steered them away from yoochun. yoochun and yunho also showed basically no acknowledgement toward each other that day it was weird. cause you know, all the dbsk members are close to each other.
and also yoochuns untitled song he wrote all the problems out right. bam. those were the problems. it was just sme.
i think yoochun, since he drinks with jae he told jae about his unhappiness and insecurities and about how he knows now that they're being treated unfairly. jae agrees and they confer with the rest of dbsk.
yunho disagrees, his family is like a justice force family you know? before dbsk debuted his father looked over his contract. him and his father already knew about all the bad stuff, but back then they had threatened to replace yunho so yunho and his dad decided just to take the 13 year contract. yunho knew and knows its unfair but, because he is jung yunho he honors his promises and his contracts. he will not leave. his father agrees with him. theres a quote from him about it something like 'an illegal contract is still a contract' or something.
well changmin agrees with yunho but junsu wants to go with yoochun and jaejoong because 'if anyone leaves dbsk i will not be in dbsk anymore' he has said that once before right?
thats around when the arguement hits its peak. they cannot reach an agreement. they start moving around at the airport as jyj and homin and you can feel the split energy.
then you know the rest...
i think the heat only lasted a little bit tho because no matter how big a fight dbsk get in they always 'settle it over a drink' like jaejoong has said...
i think its totally true that dbsk meet each other. Havent you heard of all those celebs that converse but they cant make it public because they're in different companies? well now it must be kept EVEN MORE SECRET than that because of SME. so of course we dont know.
but really now Cassiopeia gets the hints
those pics with yunho and changmin with a dog that looks ALOT like yoochuns and then yoochun puts up a pic of his dog as his twitter pic.
and jaejoong posting up 'i got the cool guys sunglasses' and then yunhos not wearing the sunglasses around anymore just proves to me that the pic really is yunhos sunglasses.
cassiopeia gets the hints. they've made up.
they want to be together, theyve said it many times super bluntly, but circumstances being what they are they cant. not yet. but soon.
they'll be back. dont worry. im so certain of this really. theres no need to worry.
dbsk i love you! <3
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