okay

*sigh*
its almost 3 years now...
its almost 8 years now...
its got me thinking will i be a fool that waits for dbsk another year?
what about the year after that?
and after that?

as of now i think 'definetly'

but...

i do feel the fatigue that many older Cassiopeia felt and do feel now...

the tiredness...

i love you...
i need you...
i long to be with you...
i long for you to be together...
i long for what once was...
i long for what i hope will be...

will i wait forever?

as of now 'definetly' is still what i will say but

my heart...

everyone has doubts...

we have our weaker days and stronger days...

but i dont think that such days will render my faith from them...

i hope and pray for their happiness...

please be happy...

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on another note
Yunjae yunjae yunjae ive been into them alot lately again so much and dbsk5 like i said b4

then my bdays coming up like i said and yeah the biggest thing i hope to get is JYJ in heaven CD...
i want to go to new york and go to TVXQ concert! TT^TT

*sob sob*

oh yeah

Jaejoongs protect the boss is over he did a good job

then something else recently KBS stated that JYJ's song 'Pierriot' is unsuited for radio because it mentions Lee Su Man...

okay the lyrics are DEFINETLY AIMED AT SM AND THE HORRIBLE COMPANY AND LSM

BUT

how can they interpret certain words to mean lsm? 

like jaejoong responded 'its all how people interpret the song' or something to that effect.

i mean 'your truly a psm'

i never understood those lyrics but psm doesnt necessarily mean 'president su man'

they never gave JYJ any chance to explain what it means plus even of psm means 'president su man' korea is a free country and stuff right?!

it should STILL be allowed to be broadcasted!!!!!

what bs is this?!

but then i realized this isnt the 1st time korean govt stood up against free minds.  i mean hellooo? Epik high much?

anyways thats all i really have to say and its late so yeah whatever im done