Saturday, April 13, 2013

JYJ's Tokyo Dome was just brilliant

do you know how brilliant JYJ are?

they were/are always the very emotional ones but they are brilliant.

having Tokyo Dome Live 1st before starting their tour was brilliant.

1- they got to quickly meet all their fans like they promised as they wanted
2- they got to show all those big-shot companies that tried to bribe them with contracts and millions of yen that they can make billions within 3 days
3- they got to show the company that they signed with that they are the real deal
4- they did Tokyo Dome before they started with the new company so people know that this is JYJ's power alone harboring all of this attention
5- they were able to have one last big blow out with their Japanese staff that helped them and stuck by them through and through

they are just so brilliant

its like when you say you hit 2 birds with one stone
they got all 5 of these things accomplished within just 3 days

just such an amazingly smart move

its so funny because SM always acted like the boys don't know what they're doing when they are so god damn smart

SM is always copying JYJ now-a-days too such losers

Friday, March 22, 2013

Stronger Than They Appear

so much god damn injustice.
so much god damn injustice!
its just NOT RIGHT...
when JYJ left they knew this would happen to them but still...
it's been 3 god damn years!
how dare you...
HOW DARE YOU!

i can't even wrap my head around this

i became a fan in 2009 so i was there right when it broke

i was there when all the god damn precious pieces were falling all over the fucking floor
Cassiopeia wants to pick up the pieces
but its so untouchable
and it rots and withers away because no one is there to nourish it

i don't even know what i'm talking about
oh god

it's been 3 god damn years
I AM JYJ bias, okay?
i am
i admit it

i
can't
stand
what
people
do
to
them

the presidential inauguration...
y'know i did get angry
fucking Korean media degrading JYJ and cutting their performance time

what else should i have expected? i thought
of course they would find a way

i had hoped
i had HOPED
that JYJ would have been able to perform like a normal artist for ONCE
ONCE in god damn 3 fucking years
3 GOD DAMN YEARS!

it hurts so much that i had started to think everything was going to be over
that JYJ would finally FINALLY be able to perform like normal

FINALLY

but of course
what was i thinking?
to even put any amount of trust into those god damn show hosts
those god damn camera men
those god damn...
i shouldn't have started to trust them again

it was my fault that i'm so hurt
because i started to trust them again
when i shouldn't have

----

it's just wonderful though
that all these feelings are being brought back now
it's supposed to be a time of happiness and rejoice
in basking in their success
but no
that god damn article
brought back all these dark horrible feelings
it brought them all back to me
because it hurts to re-realize their predicament
it god damn hurts

it made me re-realize why they were so sad for so long
why they write so many sad/angry songs
why they are the true heroes
because in the end
its THEM
THEY are the righteous ones
taking all this CRAP

----

the article made me remember:
that JYJ can't ever show their faces on Music Bank
it made me remember:
Jaejoongs scandal
Yoochuns scandal
it made me remember:
Save Jeju Island
and
Charity Concert in Japan
and
the Buses during Unbelievable Live Tour
it made me remember:
that it was so god damn hard for Junsu to get to perform in his own god damn country when he was promoting his solo album
and then finally they let him perform during a disability charity concert

and they turned the lights off on him and stopped recording

it reminds me:
all of the times the anonymous 'they'
the anonymous 'he'
the anonymous 'friend'
came up and i KNEW they were talking about JYJ
but people couldn't SAY it...

it reminds me:
DBSK were in DEBT to SM when JYJ left

i feel so unbelievably pissed off

and yet i feel god damn proud
and strength
i feel it coursing through my veins
i feel it
i will support JYJ always
no matter how many things they throw at them
no matter what those paid off fucking no good people say about them
no matter what

even if it means that i will feel pain
that people will spit at ME
i will stand by JYJ

they are the real heroes
i am fucking proud of them
SO god damn PROUD
i am so proud to be their fan
i wouldn't trade anything
i will always stand by them

their accomplishments
their achievements
their smiles
their laughter
their success
not only in work but in achieving everything that they want to the way they god damn want to

and

their happiness

it is mine

because they worked hard
because they are honest people
because they don't hurt others
because they TAKE the heat
because they are still humble
because they don't dish back at those bastards that hurt them and blow up even if i think they god damn have every right to

they are amazing

i will ALWAYS stand by them

i will ALWAYS be their fan

because they are better than what has been done to them
because they are better than what has been said about them
because they are better than those people who use underhanded tactics just to make sure that they hurt and that they know that they are being hurt on purpose

they are above all of that

DBSK

JYJ

i like them because of their voices
i like them because of their looks
i like them because they're personalities
i love them because of their hearts

i love that they keep moving
keep pushing through all the tough times
all the rough patches
they don't dwell
they take all that negative energy and they channel it into becoming better

they always strive to become better
they always work their hardest
everyday

THAT is what i love about these boys

THAT is why i'm Cassiopeia
THAT is why i won't ever give up on them

i love them

they are better than all of this

they will rise again

one day

one day

one day

one day

one day


we are waiting

Always Keep The Faith

Friday, March 8, 2013

DB5K are friends and the evidence is with their friends (JYJ and TVXQ)

DB5K are definitely friends

the thing with the Dong Bang boys is that they are so... polite
seriously, have you seen other idols? our boys are basically saints in comparison
which means its harder for them to SHOW their anger, frustrations, etc. with us
not saying that they don't but they are so damn polite
and that's a big reason why i love them but it is a hindrance to our understanding the situation
which is why you have to not only watch the boys closely you must also watch their friends closely
because their friends reveal more than what the boys reveal.

anyways let the analysis begin

when the lawsuit began Yunho and Changmin were on 'break' and JYJ were off on their own

Yoochun bought a house and lived with his family
Junsu lived with his family
Jaejoong lived with (well now we know but we really didnt know back then) Hyunjoong for a while


remember now
Junsu is close friends with Eunhyuk, Leetuk and Sungmin, his Super Junior boys (i wont go into their history, if you want to know how close they are just google it, this is an analysis)

(i must explain though, the Suju boys are a lot freer than DBSK... their concept is that they are all different and do different things, there are many of them so its okay for them to be a little out of line, unlike the DBSK boys...)

anyways at this time Eunhyuk and Leetuk talked a lot about Junsu.  Which was amazing because it was like mentioning any of the JYJ members was like taboo or something. no one would dare to talk about them, but these 2 did. they are THAT close.

(which gave me hope that SM and non SM artist could still be friends, even after all of this lawsuit stuff, friendships outlast all of that)

for Jaejoong i will talk about Hangeng and Hyunjoong

first lets talk about Hyunjoong
Jae stayed at Hyunjoongs for a few months, right? (plus Hyunjoong even went to Canada with Jae that one time, there is no doubt that they are very close friends)
if Hyunjoong was kind enough to let Jae stay with him don't you think they are close enough that Jae would talk to Hyunjoong about his problems?
and Hyunjoong is obviously Jaejoongs friend, he would sympathize with Jae right?

remember when Yunho was on TV promoting their first comeback after the breakup?
the one with Hyunjoong and Yunho
they were very very polite towards each other
i watched as they bowed to each other and shook hands (if i remember they did this right?)
anyways i could tell they were both kind of passive aggressive (at least in my opinion)
Hyunjoong shared an interesting story about Yunho
something along the lines of Yunho being stubborn about paying for the food because Hyunjoong was the dongseng
dont you think it was kind of passive aggressive
its typical if he was with Jae and is on Jae's 'side', or if not side but he agrees with Jae more, that he would say something about Yunho just to tussle him a little?
im not saying Hyunjoong was being malicious or anything
im just saying maybe he wanted to point out to Yunho a flaw of his
anyways it was all in good fun but the whole time i was wondering how Yunho and Hyunjoong felt about each other knowing that Jae left the TVXQ dorm and is staying with Hyunjoong
its like pretending that this big thing that links them isn't there and they just spoke as if they were old friends who didnt see each other too much and nothing interesting was going on at all
even though i was wondering if Yunho ever thought to ask Hyunjoong about Jae afterwards or if they just left the set as if there was nothing to be said to each other
(maybe you should watch it again?)

anyways on to Yunho with Heechul
remember when Junsu wrote that tweet (that every assumes was towards Yunho but who knows)
i remember that Heechul said something very bluntly about 'slave' contracts and how they are not 'slave' contracts, and Shindong also said something too (darn i dont remember and dont want to go look it up)
anyways it was as if they were retorting against accusations against not just themselves but Yunho and Changmin also.

at this point i was a bit confused and riled up.  why announce to the whole world all these problems and fight each other through the public media instead of just meeting up and fixing things?  Maybe it wasn't just towards JYJ, maybe it was also towards the accusing fans (that were and are totally insane)

but the point is we know that Heechul (and Shindong) are in Yunho's camp
Heechul is VERY loyal and i KNOW that Heechul wouldn't allow anyone to hurt or bully Yunho (or Changmin but you know Heechul and Yunho have history, remember when Yunho got poisoned and Heechul wrote that very angry letter?)

anyways that is when i figured, so i guess they are fighting... or at least a little tense
i'm sure that they have different views on this topic (at this point i thought i really didnt like Suju because they always say whatever they want, its so unsightly, but now i appreciate it, at least a little because at least we know exactly where they stand on certain things...)

everyone at this point was also very sensitive

Don't forget about Hangeng, Heechul specifically, missed Hangeng like hell (he still misses him i believe) and it must have crushed Heechul that Hangeng left Super Junior, i'm sure he had some lawsuit/contract anger built up in him even without Yunho and Changmins predicament to set him off

moving forward in time though

i believe that now things are so much better

for one thing Junsu's friend Eunhyuk
they still hang out, still talk, still best friends forever and ever
would Eunhyuk really be so comfortable and happy with Yunho and Changmin when they are collaborating or on a show if Junsu or any of the JYJ boys had bad blood with them?
i think not
smiles and laughs like the ones that Eunhyuk and Leetuk share with the current TVXQ
i dont believe they are fake
i think they ARE friends
which gives me a HUGE amount of faith that Yunho and Changmin are okay with JYJ
I believe that Eunhyuk and Leetuk are very faithful friends to Junsu
no contract or company, nothing, could come between them, they were trainees, kids, together (this goes for Sungmin too)

and don't forget who suddenly took a picture together showing that they were friends
who?
Heechul and Jaejoong of course
SM's two princesses (well 1 former)
anyways if Heechul and Jaejoong are friends things are definitely okay between Jae and Yunho at least because Heechul is Yunho's loyal loyal friend (one thing i'm sure about with Suju is that most of them are extrememly loyal to their friends and very headstrong and determined)

if Yunho and Jae were not on good terms i cannot believe that Heechul would be Jaejoongs friend

and those of you wondering about what i think about Heechul and Hangeng
its obvious that Jae and Hangeng are still friends
they both said something strikingly similar, to the point where i thought, they really must have come up with this conclusion together because there is no other way they could have thought the exact same thing at the same time
Jaejoong revealed something about when JYJ left quite recently, it was that JYJ article where they talked about the lawsuit. he said something along the lines of 'we needed to leave when our popularity was at its peak, so that people would know that we left because of corruption of the company'
Hangeng said the same thing when he was interviewed about leaving SM on a TV show. and if you know anything about Jae and Hangeng, they share each others sentiments, they are very similar in this aspect (i was rather surprised though that they still talked because they don't mention each other, especially in the recent years, but the connection is still there. and this doesn't have much to do with anything but they both have white snakes in their MV's that are 'evil', just saying, and if you think about it pointing out that they are close friends now would just leave people thinking that they conspired together, which sounds sneaky and horrible, which they are not )


but over all the conclusion is this

for now i think DB5K are on good terms

i think the reason we don't see them together is, well for one they all are quite busy, and two it would put too much pressure on them to get back together right away.

think about it

if they have different views on the contract and the way they will go about their next few years then they cant be together

i have accepted that they have different views but many Cassiopeia haven't
think about it
DB5K go to a restaurant
tell me how many people would say 'omg are they getting back together?!'
i know i would be one of those people
but you know
just being together as friends wont get you a contract together to work together
its so much more complicated than 'are they friends or not friends'
them working together is their life choice
it involves business and contracts and so many other complicated things...

if they can't they can't and being seen together would only cause so many more problems than not being seen together
it would save Cassiopeia so much pain if they dont see each other in public
and i know that many would not agree but it is true

but let me reassure you something
i'm sure they are friends
i'm sure they see each other (definitely not in public places but privately so no one knows and it doesn't cause complications)

i'm sure that they are friends
i am absolutely positive
there is no doubt in my mind

for a fan who has been here to watch all of these things occur
and trying to piece together everything

i am so sure so it's okay

they don't hate each other so take a breath :)

maybe someday we will see DB5K again on that stage

but for now isn't it enough to know that they are still friends who love each other?

well, it's not for me but i live well enough knowing that there is that love still there, and that hope is also still there

its the reason i always keep the faith

but lets respect them
they've worked so hard
i will continue to try to be the best i can be for them also

good night!

Yunjae

its been a long time
yunjae...
i dont doubt they love each other
never ever ever
i will never doubt that

they love each other
like LOVE love each other

its just fate
its just the way things are
they are just meant to be

i never believed in fate before yunjae
never did
but yunjae is just so...
right

they are so right

its sad that it hurts
its sad
the situation
everything thats wrong

but them together
THAT
is so right.

im not one of those people who think that everything that yunjae do they do for each other
they are people
people who are so different from each other
they cant be together in front of us right now
they cant be together everyday every hour right now

but they ARE together again

i am sure

they are...

they are so messed up
they are a 'hot' couple, its so obvious
they love each other and there is no logic to it
there is just passion
their love is plain passion

its NOT logical for them to be together
im sure they both know that

but they are

its because they love each other
they were fated to love each other
they themselves...
they were meant to be

i am so sure of this

i am so sure of their love

its so warm
when i see them together
i know i am not the only one who sees it

its so warm
when they glance
when they touch
and i know they share something more
you just FEEL it

they are so right
them together

they are so right

Friday, February 8, 2013

hanjoong feels

The first time Han Geng saw Jaejoong, the thing he remembered the most was his eyes. Jaejoong has a pair of extremely beautiful eyes. His eye pupil's are very black, very bright, and is even prettier than a girl’s eyes. (Me: That is so damn true!!! XOXOXO ^_^) He is like someone handsome right out from a comic. Although he has seen Heechul, which has a similar famous beautiful appearance, Han Geng still feels shocked by Jaejoong’s appearance. Hero’s appearance is a different kind of beauty, totally different from of Heechul’s. Jaejoong’s appearance is delicate, pretty, and it also gives a cold feel that rejects you miles away. Han Geng thought that Jaejoong is truly worthy as the champion of SM’s Beautiful Appearance Award. (Me: Yes I totally agree 100%!!! XOXOXO ^_^)

Although Jaejoong’s appearance brings a feminine resemblance, his appearance also gives people a really cold feeling. Besides he mutually gives regards, Jaejoong nearly does not speak at all, and always shows an expressionless face, this lets Han Geng think that he is hard to get close to. This impression continues on until both of them are placed into the same dormitory.

From then on, only then had he understood that the “first impression” that Jaejoong gave are the total opposite of who he truly is. Kim Jaejoong is someone who, if he wants to, can make people laugh like mad, that kind of person.

“ Hyung, you know what are fingers for? ”
" What? "
" It is for stirring the soup when you don’t have a spoon . "

First time Han Geng heard Jaejoong made this kind of joke, Han Geng thought in surprise that ‘So this person can make jokes!?!”. In just a short month time, Han Geng’s impression of Jaejoong has greatly changed into ‘This guy is really funny’.

The first time Han Geng has really experience Jaejoong’s funny skills was not long after they had stay together. There was once, he, Jaejoong and a few trainees were practicing dancing. During rehearsal break, they start playing a game, taking turns showing the dance they are most skilled in, the one who dance the best won’t have to clean up the practice room later. Everyone dance with all his might, Han Geng also did a dazzling popping dance. When it was Jaejoong’s turn, he just stand in the middle of the place and suddenly start a weird dance. His two arms wiggle forward, like a queer bird flapping it’s wings, one hand pointed at the sky and the other hand pointed at the floor, then he started running and turning around in circles, after a few circles he start shaking his hand and feet causing Han Geng and the others to look dumbfoundedly. When they finally started responding, everyone was drop to the floor laughing their hearts out, Han Geng laugh till he almost breathless, he never would have thought that Kim Jaejoong, such a pretty-faced guy, would have such a humor in him.

After that, as Han Geng slowly understand him more, he started liking him more. Jaejoong is a kind and considerate person. Although he may look cold on the outside, he is very kind and warm in the inside. Once, when Han Geng was not feeling well, Jaejoong was the only one that found out. Jaejoong gave him medicine and even made porridge for him, that really touched Han Geng. Both them instantly became best friends, Jaejoong can talk a lot, love telling cold jokes, love to play around, and always make Han Geng laughs. The “ cold impression and beautiful Jaejoong” that he first seen has gone to don’t know which planet.

Jaejoong also likes Han Geng. Han Geng also don’t know why but compared with the other people in the same dormitory, Jaejoong was closer to him. Jaejoong will come to find him no matter if it’s dance practice or song practice. The truth is, Han Geng’s Korean language skills was bad back then, sometimes Jaejoong had to speak with a little sign language for Han Geng to get what is said, but Jaejoong treat him this foreigner better than he treats anyone else, Han Geng was very touched of this.

Those days, Jaejoong was very serious with practicing singing, he can practice his vocal whole day and night in the practice room, till a very crazy extent. Han Geng was really shocked when he first got to know of Jaejoong’s suffering experience. When Jaejoong was a mere 10 age plus boy, he once sold his blood for a meal, even walk till he fainted just to save the transportation money needed. Han Geng was naturally impressed with Jaejoong which was two years younger than him. Jaejoong has a strong determined heart.

But all those are already in the past. The Jaejoong now can finally realize his dream under the name of TVXQ. Han Geng will feel happy everytime he sees Jaejoong’s cheerful face. Han Geng knows that the Jaejoong who sees his dream and friendship more important than anything else, not only has dream, but also the TVXQ members that he cares deeply. With Junsu, Yoochun, Changmin and Yunho by his side, this kind of Jaejoong will live his everyday happier than in his past.


credits to:Mary1803

Sunday, February 3, 2013

people think

people think that they are so strong
that they're always doing what they want to do
JYJ aren't in SM anymore so they do whatever they want
false
do you see Jaejoong able to promote his album on TV? no
Jaejoong Yoochun and Junsu
they haven't become party animals and crazy drug addicts or anything bad have they? no
they're still polite, they're still hardworking
just because their 'free' doesn't mean their free from societal expectations or from getting blocked from TV

and Yunho and Changmin
just because they decided to stay doesn't mean that their chained up dogs
but it doesn't mean that they have 'freedom' either!
i worry about them BECAUSE of the overwork, BECAUSE of the overlaying schedules
i worry about them because that is part of what made JYJ leave

but these 2 never seem to admit defeat even though they are human
they always take on more and more so headstrong
but it hurts to see them hurt and then continue pushing on at the same fast pace

i just don't know

both of their circumstancesssss....

i'm so frustrated!

JYJ they seek free creativity, they seek to expand, that is why i'm JYJ bias

it hurts but if i was one of the member

i would have stayed with Yunho and Changmin, because of all the reasons Yunho and Changmin stayed, the SM family, Suju, Shinee, because of all the hardwork and effort that was put into TVXQ that i would not be able to part with, because of the knowledge of being able to be seen on TV and continue the name, because of knowing that if i were to leave there would be too much at risk, because of a feeling of loyalty towards SM because they were the ones who created what i cherish now, even if i hated them, despised how they over work, how they have greed for money or whatever, i would have stayed if i were a member.

it hurts that as a fan i support JYJ so much more
that when i see JYJ i get the feelings, of liveliness and growth, of new songs being sung
of new opportunities being pursued
but when i look at Yunho and Changmin
i feel trapped
i feel uncertain of their happiness and willingness
i feel scared, wondering if they are hurt because these 2 never show it
i feel like i don't want to watch them
i don't want to watch them because i always think
'are you really saying that or is that scripted?'
its so strange isn't it?
when they were all in DBSK most times everything was scripted with some adlib and it was fine with me
but now
now that i see JYJ able to say reasonably what they want, when they want to, how they want to
it seems so fake to have a script planned out now
it seems like Yunho and Changmin could do it too, talk without a script, say exactly how they feel, not have to be so polite when answering questions, i wish for them to talk seriously towards us fans at least, no script nothing.  Just something to make sure that they are doing well, i don't even know, when they smile i don't know if its real, and it scares me that i question them and it hurts and causes me to turn away from them
they look so perfectly fine, they become more and more refined looking, more and more charactered, i'm sorry but 2d, so 2d are their characters that they're portraying now that i feel there is an ocean behind both of them that is being hidden

Yunho the leader, Yunho who is a bit clumsy and cute, a bit sensitive and silly, yet headstrong, polite yet formidable, his stance everything shows his strengths

Changin the maknae, outspoken, rude to people, snarky, smart, loves food, a bit rude to fans, yet still loving in his own way

isn't there more to them than that?
i know this is part of them but it's just what they're showing us
i can't even describe JYJ's characters anymore because they've broken their idol character images
i want to see Yunho and Changmin's idol characters broken
i want it to be okay that they're a mess of contradictions
i want to not just love them because of their character they choose to show, i want to love them because they are showing their true selves, i wish....
they would leave SM
i know i'm so bias
but i want them to leave
these feelings of wanting to see a new them
only leaving would be able to accomplish this
and i hate that i can't support their position
i hate that i can't support the decision that i myself would have done
but i want them to leave SM so much

but i do love them still
i do love them
i know i do because i want the 5 of them together again
and don't want JYJ alone
i long for all 5 of them
to see them again
i want to see their facial expressions side by side, their interactions

i want to know they are all being real with us, doing as they please, succeeding in their explorations

just everything
i feel so bad i feel like this because... i want to support them but can't
and i'm trying to figure out why
it hurts, but i would never bash Yunho or Changmin either
because i still love them
i do still love them

Sunday, January 20, 2013

Jaejoong Mine interpretations

these are amazing
http://jyjsoul.tumblr.com/post/40887214335/jyj-kim-jaejoongs-mine-mv-interpretation

http://intendone.tumblr.com/post/40796973290/fly-forever-symbolism-and-imagery-in-jaejoongs

http://intendone.tumblr.com/post/40283315814/mine-teaser-symbolism-interpretation

http://www.hellokpop.com/2013/01/20/music-video-review-the-artistry-and-symbolism-behind-kim-jaejoongs-mine/

i like this one too, i don't agree with some of it but i like how she incorporated a lot of the lyrics and also touched on things the others did not

http://lylisia.wordpress.com/2013/01/18/mine/

and then there's me adding my 2 cents

http://dbskthe1eternally.tumblr.com/post/41084369109/mine-further-interpretation

http://dbskthe1eternally.tumblr.com/post/41090961731/i-just-want-to-point-out-i-read-that-jaejoong

have it be known that interpretations all differ accordingly. we don't actually KNOW for EXACT what Jaejoong was thinking when he created the MV but through general analysis of the MV we came to conclusions according to our individual knowledge about symbols and about Jaejoong's situation.

heck i read something where Chinese Cassies were drawing up comparisons with Mirotic

the only one who knows for sure what things mean to Jaejoong is Jaejoong himself
it's just like his tattoo's, there are multiple meanings and multiple interpretations

but through analyzing  we can try to understand and come at least a little bit closer to the truth within Jae's MV