TT^TT

when will everything stop?
im literally crying now,
i read junsus twitter and jaejoongs today....
junsu was quoting alot from songs and he even put up a pick from when DBSK sang 'Stand by You'...
then jaejoongs friends are so nice... Himchan was so nice and every1 rly i wanna say thank you to all of DBSK's friends rly THANK YOU for always standing by them TT^TT
and then theres hyukjae who is now following junsu and they had a little cute conversation on twitter and i was spazzing of happiness until i read someones comment it said 'how convenient since super junior are making their comback soon' and i just died a little inside!
i love hyukjae for being junsus bff for basically life! and rly to even THINK.... is hyukjae like THAT? i dont wanna think that! i dont! but now that that person wrote that i can only feel sad a bit that MAYBE that might be it and its really really sad... TT^TT
but really i want to believe in the hyuksu love that is everlasting and untainted because these 2 are so PURE and i dont want ppls comments and speculations to ruin their friendship... so even if hyukjae WAS told to make friends with susu again to promote himself and in turn super junior i dont care.  as long as hyukjae gets to talk to his best friend again.  As long as Junsu finds atleast a little bit of comfort and happiness by talking to hyukjae i think 'its okay' because Junsu is happy to talk to him because of that.... i just want my boys to be happy... TT^TT
and now i find out that yoochun has Herpes Zoster due to stress and malnutrition... yoochunnie!!! TT^TT  He already had that stomach thingy because of stress and malnutrition! gaaaww! chunniiiie! i am so worried SO worried! TT^TT
the fans and friends have been so great to JYJ i feel so full of gratitude for them being like this for our JYJ
just THANK YOU! TT^TT

DBSK's friends their backup dancers, their staff, all those people we dont even see that protect them and comfort them... they are there and so is Cassiopeia so... i just hope they can stay strong... i dont want them to feel the tension or the hurt i want them to feel the love and joy we have just seeing their faces...

thats all i have to say right now i guess... its just.... theres so much emotion.... so many emotions going on in my heart and i know it cant even compare to what the 5 are feeling.... please be strong for everyone and for eachother dbsk! TT^TT