Saturday, December 15, 2012

gah i'm ridiculous!

you know what i just realized?

Jack Frost starts with 'Ja'
and
Yue starts with 'Yu'
its YJ
just like Yunjae
just like JJ's cats names are
Jiji and Yoyo
the YJ pairing is like symbolic
and i picked 'Yue' because i thought it sounded nice but subconciously made it YJ because i thought it sounded nice
OTZ even this momentary Jack Frost obsession is pulled by my Yunjae sympathies!
and to make it worse i knew ppl were saying Jack looked like Jae but didn't realize i was making fanfiction that in my head was just like Yunjae were stepping into Jack and Yue's shoes and being them
I imagined Yue to look like Yunho and Jack to look like Jae oh my god and i didnt even realize it! ugh!
my OTP will rule me forever apparently
and im okay with this OTL

Wednesday, December 12, 2012

Dear Tumblr,

please come baaaack :( auuugh i just CANT UGH! LIVE! AHHUUUHGHHHHHH! i think i have internet addiction, tumblr addiction... i can't do anything ugh asdfkasjdgksd
i want you back please! TT^TT

Sunday, December 9, 2012

Jack Frost meets The Man in the Moon

Warning! NC-17
Jack Frost x The Man in the Moon


The Man in the Moon watched as Jack glided through the forest, the wind carrying him gracefully.  He could hear Jack laughing to himself as he froze over a lake.  The Man in the Moon smiled as he watched Jack landed on the lake, skating around with ease. 
Jacks silvery white hair rushed through the wind so beautifully.  This boy was kind and innocent, he was happy and joyful.  He had done a good job choosing Jack as a guardian.  The Man in the moon continued to watch him every night without fail.  He mooned over his own handicraft in creating Jack’s physical appearance, his white clean hair, his blue crystal snowflake eyes, his blue sweater with icicles, his light fair skin, and his ice cold touch. While admiring these traits he began to love not only his own handiwork but became even more in awe of Jacks inner self.  He had known Jack was good and kind, but Jack was so much more selfless and giving, so much stronger than even he himself could have ever imagined.
The Man in the Moon found that his admiration had grown beyond the boundaries, the constrictions of what was just admiration, and had become love.
Jack finally stopped skating for a second, and looked down at the ice, taking The Man in the Moon out of his thoughts.  Jack was looking at something on the ice but he couldn’t tell what it was.  Jack turned around and looked up at him and the Man in the Moon gasped because Jack had the most breathtaking smile on.  Jack had noticed the reflection of the moon in the ice and had stopped to admire it, admiring HIM.
The moon was round and bright, full and there was not a single cloud in the night sky to cover it.
“Man in the Moon” Jack whispered.  Jacks voice sent a thrill through him. “You’re really handsome tonight… I wish you would talk to me… I wish that I could hear your voice… see your human face.  You were once a human too, right?  I wish you were here, I mean standing right here.  I have so many questions I want to ask and so many things I wish to say… like… like ‘thank you’… I want to say a lot but I’m afraid you can’t hear me, or you’re not listening… even now… I wish I could see your form so I know I’m not just here by myself” Jack sighed dismay in his voice, that smile quickly turning into one of dismay.
The Man in the Moons heart was shaken, that just a simple plea from this young boy, that of about 300 years old, could stir such deep emotion in such an old soul, was hard for even himself to believe.
The man in the moon took a deep breath, steeling himself, he didn’t know how long ago it was that he had been back on earth in his human form.  Truthfully he was frightened.  How would he look?  The same as when he had first become the moon?  Had his features changed since last time he saw them? He thought this but he really didn’t even remember what he looked like.  He wanted to ease the boy but he was afraid also.  He was always able to watch and didn’t have to participate.  The man in the Moon asked himself if he even remembered how to speak.  What did his voice sound like? The more The Man in the Moon pondered this the more afraid he grew.  True, he was powerful, but that power had made him isolated.
It was too late to think all his worries through though, Jack Frosts sad face was enough to crush his heart, and so he shone his light on Jack.  Surprised by the sudden brightness Jack took a step back from the glowing light that fell shining in a beam down in front of him.
His image was already taking form within the light, wisping the light particles together in a swirl of motion.  Jack stood stunned, his breathless at what was happening right before his eyes.
The light revealed a glowing outline first, a tall well built body, at least a head taller than Jack, lean waist, and a broad shoulders.  Then details began to conjure, a white top hat covering his face with a matching suit, gloves and shoes, and a gentlemanly straight posture.  Then details began to take form, Jack could see the gold lining on his hat, suit and gloves, he could see the small twinkle that shinned off them beautifully, as if those linings were golden glitter.
Finally The Man in the Moon lifted his head, slowly, uncovering his face from his hat, revealing a shy smile.  Jack gasped as The Man in the Moon revealed his eyes, a shining pale yellow, his skin practically glowing white porcelain, his blond hair was cropped short yet outlined his beautiful yet masculine features, high cheekbones, adams apple on his long neck, he looked to be only in his early twenties.  He was a sight to be seen.
The Man in the Moon asked, “How do you do?” when Jack continued to stare at him.  His voice was deep and musical.  He didn’t know what kind of reaction to expect, he had never taken human form since the first time he was changed into the moon, meaning no one had ever seen The Man in the Moons human form before, and so he had no other people to measure Jacks reaction to.
“M-Man in the Moon?” Jack whispered still shocked.  He had been calling The Man in the Moon ever since he had become Jack Frost, he could not believe his wishes were answered.
“Yes, that’s me, but I prefer to be called Yue” He frowned “Is there something wrong?” he looked at his hands, then took off his hat and rubbed his hair, it was a mess of shining pale gold, that still fell perfectly after The Man in the Moon stopped playing with it.
Yue was about to put his hat back on when Jack slid closer and stopped his hand.  He froze, he hadn’t had any form of contact in anyone ever since he had become the moon.
“Wait,” Jack told him, looking down at where Jacks hand lay on his arm, stopping him from putting on the hat.  Jacks eyes snaked up his shoulder, to his neck, his lips, every feature, until their eyes met.
The Man in the Moon was nervous as the boy looked him over, but never before had he felt such a surge of energy as when Jack was looking at him straight in the eyes.  Jacks blue crystal eyes that seemed so pure and clean, especially now that Jack was basked in the light of his moon beam.
Jack had a serious face as he peered into The Man in the Moons eyes, they fascinated him, looking closely he could see that they weren’t just normal pale yellow eyes, but just like the gold in his suit, or the strands of his hair, Yue’s eyes held glittering wisps of lights in constant motion.
“Can i…” Jack started as his other hand roamed up Yue’s chest towards his face, feeling his cheek, as if to make sure that Yue’s perfect white skin wasn’t fake.  Jacks ice cold touch sending pleasurable shivers down Yue’s back.   
Jack smirked, thinking that it was the coldness of his hand that caused Yue to shiver “Sorry about that”, he began to take his hand away when Yue shook his head and held the hand in place. 
“No, I like it” He smiled at the boy who blushed.
A little embarrassed Jack looked away from Yue “S-stupid… you show up now of all times…”
The Man in the Moon smiled “I’m sorry I made you wait” He wrapped his strong arms around the boy and leaned his head down and pressed their foreheads together, forcing Jack Frost to lock gazes with him once more.
Jack grasped Yue’s arm and the back of his neck, as he was slightly lifted from the ground, “W-what are you doing?  Let go of me, you’re going to freeze you know…”
Yue laughed, causing Jack to blush even redder “What?!”
“Don’t worry about me” Yue said “I feel warmer when I’m touching you”
Yue, craned his neck down engulfing Jack in a deep kiss.
“MMNnn…” Jack’s voice came out, surprised.
He was breathless as he found himself underneath Yue, splayed out on the icy lake, covered in his bright beam of moonlight, the predicament making him hot inside, like he had never felt before.
Yue had dropped his hat and was now taking off his gloves.
“W-what… are we doing?” Jack moaned involuntarily as Yue’s warm hands swept underneath his shirt, lifting it up over his head with ease and started pinching his nipples.
The Man in the Moon could not stop now, seeing Jack so cute and vulnerable, so unlike how he had ever seen him before.  Yue leaned down and sucked hard on Jacks neck.
“AUuww! Yue!” Jack shouted in a mix of pain and pleasure.
One hand snaked down to Jacks lower regions, unzipping the skinny jeans and palming Jacks growing erection.
“Yue!” Jack whimpered, tears forming in his eyes “S-stop…”
“You don’t want to?” Yue frowned.
Jack shook his head and reached up to kiss The Man in the Moon deeply “I want…” He began to unbutton Yue’s jacket, and shirt, letting his body language fill in his words.  Yue helped him and took it off smiling again.
Yue managed to pull the rest of Jacks clothes off and admired the boy for a moment before moving in and leaving another hickey on his neck, while now pumping the boys erect length with his hand.  Jack moaned into Yue’s kiss, arching off the ice and clenching his fists into The Man in the Moons hair.
Jacks legs wrapped around Yue’s waist thrusting into Yue’s hand.  Yue released the breathless Jack Frost from his kiss and filled Jacks mouth with two fingers.
“MMmm” Jack moaned as he sucked and Yue pressed down in his tongue.  Yue shivered, imagining Jacks lips around his hardness.
Yue took his fingers out and brought them down to Jacks entrance, thrusting his index finger in first.
“AAH!” Jack shouted, his ice cold fingernails now digging into Yue’s back.  Yue kissed him roughly, exploring Jacks mouth with his tongue and continued to cater to the boys weeping length as he thrust his finger into him.
Tears streamed down Jacks face, as Yue entered another finger, stretching the boy using a scissoring motion within him.
Jack was not quiet, he cried out as Yue tried to calm him and assure him with his slow soft touch and distracting messy kisses.
Finally, Yue pulled his fingers out of Jack and pulled his length out of his constricting pants, pumping himself until he was ready.  Jack watched him nervously, tears in his eyes and red in the face, but with no rejection, waiting for Yue to invade him.
Yue positioned himself and thrust into Jack Frost, Yue went in inch by inch until he was fully inside Jack, Jack whimpered biting his lip, feeling so full because of Yue’s hot warmth within him.  Jack was also still tight around Yue even after Yue so thoroughly prepared him.
  “I’m going to move now” Yue said kissing Jack as Jack nodded.
Yue pulled out and thrusted hard, and suddenly Jack felt it, an amazing surge of pleasure.  He could not contain himself, as he arched high and craned his neck back, “AUH!  Yue! AGAIN!” He commanded, and Yue did just that, seeing that he wasn’t hurting the boy, he began thrusting harder and faster making Jack Frost see stars.
“AH YUE! OH GOD HARDER!” Jack shouted needily.
Yue chuckled and kissed him enjoying the vibration of Jacks shouts in his mouth and on his tongue.
Yue held Jacks hips in place and started going deeper and slower teasing the now completely wonton boy.
“YUE!” he moaned as he was slowly being filled “AUmmm, Yue please…”
Yue smirked.  He doesn’t think Jack has ever said please in his life.
“Please?” Yue’s voice made Jack visibly shiver.
Jack opened his eyes and managed to look annoyed annoyed yet embarrassed “Just fuck me harder, FASTER!” He tightened himself around his partner.
Yue complied thrusting hard causing Jack to tightly close his eyes once more from the pleasure coursing through his body.
“Yue!” Jack cried out thowing his head back against the ice as he came hard all over their abdomens, followed quickly by Yue as Yue thrust his cum in him grunting one last push.
“Yue…” Jack Frost sighed, hugging Yue’s body to his, loving the feeling of the mans large arms around him, his large hands caressing his body and the feeling if him inside him.
Yue and Jack exchanged a glance and Jack frowned at the sad look in Yue’s eyes.
“What’s wrong?”  he asked.
Yue smiled sadly, it looks like it’s my time to go.
Jack saw Yue look off to the distance and now he could tell the sun was rising.
Jack held him firmly, “No!  Don’t go!  I don’t want you to go! What if you never come back to me… like this… human form” Jack said, the sorrow in his eyes was immense “I don’t want to wait another 300 years!”
“I can only take this form during a full moon, when there is no clouds to block my light” Yue said sadly “but Jack I am here always watching over you.  We will see each other again.”
Yue bent down and kissed Jack one more time before he faded away, disappearing with the sunrise growing more and more prominent.

Saturday, December 1, 2012

Jaejoong (turned into a DB5K rant post)

words cannot describe how much i love Jaejoong okay?
just no
augh i really love him
Twitter!
@bornfreeonekiss
i was so confused at first
but he created this RIGHT AFTER the lawsuit ended so of course
'born free' like born again, now he has more freedom
and then 'one kiss' like one kiss goodbye

well at least thats what i interpret it as

anyways JJ of JYJ had me thinking too
and i do agree with everyone i've seen JJ of JYJ is also JYJ from TVXQ

I'm having overwhelming Jaejoong and DB5K feelings
srsly
Junsu aaugh his interview made me want to fall over on the floor and cry because it was so perfect and ot5
then Yoochun has been making me have so many feelings in 'Missing You' and Magic castle! UGH!
and then theres also the injustice towards Yunho and Changmin!
WHY didn't SM let them go to MAMA awards?!
obviously it was because they wanted EXO to have all the spotlight
its not that im hating or anything on the bands okay? but its so obvious!
anyways Yunho and Changmin are working really hard and gahhh they make me worried!
They dance in extreme pouring rain like it's an everyday thing!
gah! it's winter too!
I hope they don't get sick!!!!!
DX

but yeah everyone is giving me too many feelings! i just can't contain them!!!!!

Monday, November 5, 2012

Jaejoong

I have no idea why i feel so bad

this can't be because of Jaejoong losing his voice
this is probably a creation of my own

anyways maybe venting about Jaejoong will help me feel better
I hope it does
______

Jaejoong
makes me feel like i'm not alone.
The way he is... i don't even know how to describe this feeling
like when he's standing, even when he's surrounded by a million people, he seems alone
he stands alone
he has his own world
even when everyone is watching him there is something about him
the air around him is different than anyone elses
it's somehow an air of melancholy, a bit sad, i get drawn in easily to him
I always wonder what he's going to do next, how he will react to this and that
for some reason it always seems new and intriguing
like i didn't expect him to do this or that
but i'm never surprised at being surprised at him anymore
when it comes to interviews or anything
only for him will i look carefully enough
because Jaejoong drops little hints of this and that
of how he's feeling and what not
little hints that you can overlook if your not careful enough to pay close attention
I wonder if he knows what stresses me out about him?
I really like him
Jaejoong
why?
i always always ask myself why?
Why Jaejoong why?
and i never give myself a concrete answer
because i like him for the tiniest things
his small reactions
his little hint comments
that say so much
like the amount of emotion in his voice when he sings
and the small glint in his eyes
the different smiles that grace his lips
the way he stands, leaning this way or that
I don't even know
If someone asked me 'why do you like Jaejoong?'
all i could say would be 'because he is Jaejoong, i like him because he is Jaejoong'
there is something there
more than his amazing voice
and beautiful features
more than his funny comments
more than the characters he acts as
more than that
but DEEPER
there is something DEEPER that draws me to him
i don't even understand this myself

but like at the fan meeting in Indonesia

the way he looked

he was sick and tired and could not speak

but he didn't show it

he was glowing
he smiled, not his normal huge smile, but smiles that seemed private, for each of his fans
he didn't look sad, he kept a very straight face
he didn't want to show everyone that he was hurt
he gave wholeheartedly to the fans at this fan meeting
and smiled small little private smiles to each of them
and that warms my heart even more

because it makes me think

he hasn't changed

the Kim Jaejoong from a long time ago
the one who had a stony face
he made sure to smile for the fans too
they are the same person
even Kim Jaejoong
who used to have a hard time expressing himself to his fans
gave a little smile for his fans
it reminded me of a Jaejoong from a long time ago

Even though it's hard for him to express his feelings for his fans
he gives to them wholeheartedly
even though he can't express it as well as he wishes
he conveys it with the smallest smile
with gestures of kindness and understanding towards the fans who love him

just the smallest things

the smallest things make me love him

there is something about Jaejoong
he always seems alone somehow
when he's not with his members
even if we all flock around him and tell him we are with him
there is that small thing in his eyes that is different
even though his heart is the same
Jaejoong has always given me that feeling of loneliness
that makes me really want to give him my hand and tell him that so many people love him
and i know he knows this but
i still feel like i need to be here for him
and watch over him
and love him

This aura may be just a part of him
but it makes me feel like he needs love
what he needs
more than anything is love
and i want to give it to him wholeheartedly just as he has given it to us
even with small gestures
i want to show him that Cassiopeia is with him
even if he already knows
i want him to feel a little bit less lonely
a little bit more loved

Jaejoong why do i like you?
you make me feel like i'm not the only one who feels alone sometimes

you love us more than we deserve to be loved

Wednesday, October 24, 2012

DBSK One Harmony

If god is real
I have no doubt that he created these 5 boys to complete each other.
I don't understand
I will never truly understand these feelings
but i know that i FELT it

The first time they appeared in front of us
They fit so well together
even if it was a little bit awkward
only at the very beginning

because they were so different from each other

but it's amazing
its SO amazing
how well they fit together
how they just mesh
how they masked each others flaws

they were perfect together.

The way Yoochun
is so emotional
is so soft hearted
he kept DBSK rooted to their emotions
that Yoochun would cry
it was like he cried tears that were for all of them
he showed the other boys that it was okay to be sad
that it was okay to show emotion
that they would support each other always

The way Jaejoong
is opposite of his appearance
showing that looks aren't always what they seem
the way he opens his heart to is members
the way that he seems to want to hold tight
so tightly to the bond of the 5 of them
even when they were together
always holding so tight
as if to say
'they are my members
my family'

The way Changmin
even though he was a shy boy once
a boy who seemed to shrink into himself
he became a strong support for the members
our rock
he keeps everyone grounded
he's got a good head on his shoulders
that brain that is the best at school and at Japanese
that brain that is logical and realistic
he made sure everyone didn't go overboard
he always acted responsibly even though he was the youngest
he is a great maknae
a dongseng to be proud of

The way Yunho
took charge
through and through
our leader
if Yoochun and Jaejoong were the floating
if Changmin was the rock
Yunho was the one who made them go the same pace
pushed them to work together
encouraged fiercely
He carried a burden that was large
making sure that DBSK was working together
making sure everything was okay
Yunho bearing the burden of being the leader
Yunho who embodies what a leader should be

The way Junsu
smiles
the way he smiles
oh that smile that can light up a room
that attitude that would change the atmosphere in an instant
because of Junsu they were reminded
even in the toughest times
to smile
to laugh
to joke
to be young
because of Junsus optomism
DBSK could be a happier group
if Yoochun and Jaejoong are being emotional
if Changmin and Yunho are being serious
Junsu could change the atmosphere
and bring everyone together in that way
Junsu
with that smile that is so important

 They worked together

they FIT
it was like music
beautiful music
when they were together
they got into a rhythm
a natural rhythm
when they were 5 there was beautiful music

their body language
bounced off each other
like musical notes
creating harmony

when you saw them
they exchanged hugs, smiles
even when they exchanged glances
there was a language

a peaceful language
a strange and wonderful language
and when you saw it
it wasn't like you were imposing on their secret world
but as if they were inviting you into their world
their world full of that comfort

They shared comfort together
but also with us
and suddenly its like your in on the secrets of their world
and this music they create
this harmony
is so precious and important

you realize that maybe some things ARE meant to be
maybe
just maybe
they were put here to show
you
me
us
that there IS meaning
in this dark life

there is light
there is kindness
there is friendship
there is true love
there is hope
there is something MORE
you feel it so DEEP

that when you realize that you won't be able to see this perfect harmony anymore
it hurts
it hurts deep in the bones
your whole body aches
it hurts
it hurts because you HOPED
you FELT something
you BELIEVED in something
that there WAS something

and you plead with yourself
that that something is still there
IS still there
please let it still be there

and you wonder how you lived before this
without ever feeling these feelings
believing
in all of it
but you don't ever regret

NEVER
not ONCE
is there regret for loving them
not once
do you ever think you want to go back and take back
the times you smiled with them
laughed with them
felt warm in your chest because of them
felt embarrassed because of them
cried with them
cried because of them

not ONCE do you regret still loving them now
still loving the 5 of them NOW
not ONCE
do you think back and think that this was all a waste

because you KNOW that DBSK have taught you so much
so much as a human being
they have taught me so much
and i would never
take back the time i spent on them

because i believe that the time they spent together MEANT something
that the time i spent loving them MEANT something
that the time i spend loving them MEANS something
that all of us OT5 Cassies will one day
smile upon the 5 of them

and SEE
and HEAR
and FEEL
the music between them again
the beautiful harmony
that only the 5 of them could create

and then they will smile at us
the smiles that invite us into their world
the smiles that say everything without words

the smile that is for Cassiopeia

____

If god is real
he created DBSK
for the lost souls

so we could see
there can be real harmony between people

for people who needed something
and they didn't even know it


They gave me faith
not only in DBSK but in LIFE
for people like me who were losing their faith in humanity




Saturday, October 20, 2012

jaejoong on TVXQ still existing

After Tonight Show Recording, staff asked JJ how he feels that the fans shouted YH. JJ answered he was happy that when came to Thailand, fans still talked about the other two which made 3 of them believed that TVXQ still existed.
cr.parimpim bia 6286IF5ive (via reiichun)



...CRYING jaejoong do you feel like ppl think that tv5xq is nonexistent? oh poor babies ;_;

Friday, October 5, 2012

DBSK stuff hehe (Jackal is Coming!)

1. Yoochun handsome handsome handsome at his thailand fanmeeting
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qjaso_C5eG0

oh and Zelda commercial! OMG!
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=4jzkRxUHXFo&list=PL165344DA07CC288D&index=64&feature=plpp_video

2. Junsu just omg look at him he's gotten rly handsome
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=vA635_h1KD0

3. Yunho and Changmin's 1st performance of Catch Me! omg Yunho is fabulous as always! Changmin omg HIS FACE HIS SMIRK! so cocky i loved it!
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Kokex0Ifq5Q

4. Jaejoong just fabulous! just *applauding* omg just look at him
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=oXHOxPp8UT0

he's there because of his movie coming out XD Jackal is Coming!
ooh he's adorable! just soo adorable!
this was a while ago when they were still filming
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qW_osripd-8

and most recently him at his fanmeeting for Jackal is Coming!
oh i don't even know!
people are saying he looks sad or mad... ever since we saw him on the red carpet and this fanmeeting...
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=44tUK43aCUw

... he looks sad in this one.... but he looks amazing just sooooo amazing!

______

anyways analysis

Jihyo (his costar) was JUST filming running man with Yunho and Changmin earlier

and yeah then he went to the Jackal is Coming stuff with Jaejoong!!


Jaejoong... idk i'm 90% sure Jaejoong is gay.  Just what i think okay?

He seemed to always lean away from here too

*ahem*

anyways this is what i'm spazzing right now


_______

oh yeah and in DB5K news it seems that their announcing the end of the lawsuit again  to be Oct 8 and that the 5 members may stand on the stage together again

....

but i dont think thats plausible rn

Jaejoongs movie's coming out and hes promoting that, Yoochun with his fanmeetings and stuff, Junsu still doing his solo singing career, Yunho and Changmin just started promoting Catch Me....

it's not that i don't want them to be together
i do

but right now...

it's most unlikely

and i'm okay with that

i love them and respect them and what they want to do separately

i dream of them reuniting

but it's not going to happen right now
________

Ah! i just verbalized in my head what i think another thing Jaejoong could also have been mad about

Adding to this a while ago before all of this Jaejoong went to India for a shoot and kept teasing us "The reason why i'm smiling is a secret"

It was known also that Yunho was talking very happily with someone on the phone with his headphones at the airport back to Korea from SMtowns show in Jakarta Indonesia.

They both seemed superbly happy and i just can't help but point out that they are always like this at the same time

anyways then it was found out that Jaejoong AND Yunho joined Kakao Talk around the same time

THEN RUMOR SAYS Jae's Kakao got hacked and there was a shirtless picture of him apparently going around the internet from that (idk if this one is true since i haven't seen the picture myself)

___
Then a after that Jaejoong was interviewed and the interviewer asked about Junsu and Yoochun.  Jaejoong responded with something like he's happy that he can be with members who "share the same heart and the same values" as him.

this is where i go WAIT! Jaejoong always says DB5K share the same heart but you see the difference between JYJ and Homin is THEY DONT SHARE THE SAME VALUES!

i was mind boggled that Jaejoong would say that and it makes total and complete sense

they share the same heart but not the same values!  THAT is what makes them so different from each other.

well

Yunho and Changmin also had their interview and this one was about twitter

“I ever thought that it is needed but again felt that TVXQ’s style doesn’t seems to be suitable for cyworld and Twitter etc. Additionally the words needs responsibility isn’t it? We are rather straightforward people and if we were to say something, not everyone will understand it. It will seems to be uncontrollable after that. In fact, rather than saying a lot, I wish to do it in action for others to see. I will at most look at the designated member’s page of our fan club site.” (U-Know Yunho)

Max Changmin revealed, “If I were to use Twitter, where ever I am and what am I doing… wouldn’t all these be known to everyone then? This is the reason why I decided not to use it in the first place.” They have been receiving a lot of concerns in the first place and thus felt that there’s no need to upload photos and revealing their every movements right? Changmin smiled and answered, “I am the type who don’t like to attract attention. I just like being hidden quietly by myself.”

You know that i was thinking 'ah well Jae and Su use twitter and they're DBSK...'

but i understand what they meant.  If they followed JYJ at all during... you know...2009ish and even till now there are times when words are twisted and such and they ARE being wise

but there are advantages to twitter too...
______

 anyways now back up to speed

A while ago the news came out that Changmin had said "I thought hyung (Yunho) was gay for three years" on a TV show

i thought 3 years?

Yunho has said he's dated 3 people and the relationships all lasted 3 years or so right?

is it possible that Changmin meant that Yunho was dating Jaejoong for 3 years and that's why he 'thought' he was gay but since they're not 'together' anymore and since Yunho responded to that with "I prefer girls", Yunho is saying he is over Jaejoong??

he 'prefers' girls but he didnt outright say that he only liked girls.  He could have said that!  Changmin says it ALL THE TIME! the fact that he said 'prefers' stands out to me.

and just a while later Jaejoong, looking none too happy, at the Jackal is Coming things, with Jihyo, whom was just with Yunho a few days ago, at 1st seems angry but in the end looks so sad when he's singing "Maybe this is a dream and the shallow wounds i gave you..."

then the next line he doesn't sing is "maybe they're a deep punishment for me"

i was surprised he decided to sing this song, Living like a dream, the one he wrote for Dr. Jin, because the last few times he was asked to sing a song he sung

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ygQVEjDV8MA

No Gain

lyrics he wrote for No Gain are like "baby you know i can't forget. even if i call you drunk saying that i love you all you have to do is listen"

I still can't get over that "Uknow baby i can't forget"

I dont think it's coincidence that he choses THAT particular part of the song to sing

and once again i don't think it's coincidental that all this has happened and Jaejoong is singing Living Like A Dream, those particular lyrics, for no reason...
...

Yunjae seem to be so bipolar....
_____

PLUS!

let me add that rn Jaejoong is obsessing on twitter about that 'kim soo yeun'!

once before he said she was his ideal type

and now he even put up a twitter picture of himself and her

is he making Yunho jealous?

like 'i like girls too i'm over you' ?

_____

these are just assumptions made by a very delusional YJ fan so if you dont like what i say its fine
but i've been analyzing whats been going on for a long time and things always seem to go back and forth

anyways till next time! ;D

Sunday, September 30, 2012

fanfiction needs

yunjaes child = karam
jaewons child = kai
sichuls child = taemin

fanfiction awaaaay!

Friday, August 31, 2012

Good times are among us Cassiopeia let's cherish them

so many freaking feelings rn
Jajoong with his baby tweets are killing me! adopt me PLEASE!
Yoochun winning not 3 but 4 awards his year fo acting and dedicating one to his passed father! IM CRYING you are a good son Chunnie!!!
Junsu and his American tour! sooooo freaking handsome! and perfect! dont get me started! xD im so proud of him i feel like tearing again! :')
then don't even get me started about Yunho and Changmins succes at Anation! omg im so PROUD! they graced the stage at the end and the whole blue sea turned RED! after i saw the pics i could feel the tears pricking my eyes so bad! X'D

all in all i'm feeling like a proud PROUD mother goose haha
i hope they are all well and will continue to be well :)

i'm so excited for Joongie's movie too!!! can't wait! XD
++++
on another note Yunjae rumors! XD you know yunjae ring rumors!
yunhos wearing a cartier ring and i saw the gif of him KISSING it while he was looking at the some cassies who were said to have Yunjae signs!!!!

and you can't forget the rumor that yun and chunnie met up
and also the rumor that jaejae was watching yunnie and minnie during a concert! omg i'll add those fancams and stuff later if i have time to find them!

teehe

im a happy cassie and shipper :)

Thursday, July 19, 2012

jaejoong and song seung hun

Song Seung Hun: (T/N: only Jaejoong’s portion translated) Additionally, Kim Jaejoong is a junior that I often meet up in private, thus I was very happy that we are working together. Jaejoong, he is really a pretty boy, seeing him in real life! Like a doll ^^.

source: S-KIZUNA Season 4
credit: shplanet
trans by: rachui@sharingyoochun

Trending #YuchunPleaseStay

Yoochun asks if he should delete his twitter?

NO!

Trending now on twitter #YuchunPleaseStay

trending again and again and again

because that is the only place us international fans can feel like we can connect with him and the stupid sasaeng CANNOT win and take that away from us!!!

Cassiopeia power!

Wednesday, June 20, 2012

in extreme emoshinki mode

on tumblr i told everyone to be strong. to believe in DBSK.
but
here i am emoshinking away
crying about dbsk

mentioning the end of the lawsuit nearing...
it opens old wounds that gush out
and
it hurts sooo bad

the lawsuit

my heart is pounding

“All hearings of lawsuits to clarify invalidity of the exclusive contract between SM between JYJ has been finished today. Seoul Central District Court will announce it’s ruling on July 19.”


If SM wins the lawsuit, JYJ has to go back to SM or pay approx $4.5M to get out. But if JYJ wins, they can never be together as TVXQ again </3


...

Tuesday, June 19, 2012

gah! i dont know what to do with myself!! (omg self morning/pay no attention)

I'm going on a week long vacation and all i can think about is how much i'm going to miss my fandom! TT^TT

TVXQ teasers! Kill me now! I have to see mooore! Plus they have the 'I am' movie coming out thursday!
Yoochun in Elle! I KNOW there will be more out! aaaahhh! Wae?!
Junsu pics from his concerts! Sooo freaking handsommmee!!
not to even freaking mention
Jaejoong with hos drama! I srsly have to watch the 2 recent eps! aaah!

TT^TT


i have no idea how to spend this last day!
reading fanfics?
watching dbsk stuff?
scrolling tumblr?

idek! i feel like i'm leaving for a really long time and i'll miss my fandom soo much!

what is wrong with me?!

sdfkasjdglfkgjsdalsd

plus i started 2 new blogs all of a sudden and want to start a Kare Kano blog too!!
sadjgaksjdgas
that will have to wait till after the vacation!

*sigh*

what is wrong with me?!
all i can think about is what i will miss if i don't stay home!
plus i dont get twitter on my phone!!!!
JYJ aaahh!!

Oh fuuuuuck
i havent updated my fanfics in suuuch a long time tooooooo DX


___

add on how emoshinki i am because of everyone talking about the lawsuit ending and the results in july 19...

Friday, June 15, 2012

totally personal

I'm 17 now
i know i should want more
like
wanting a car
wanting a job
wanting to get out of the house
wanting more money

shit

i dont WANT anything
im not some idiot
im actually a very good daughter and i do well in school
but i dont WANT anything

when they say
dont you want more money?
not really

dont you want a job?
not really

dont you want a car?
not really

when i get a job i'll have to pay for a car and i know i wont get shit money
i hate how my parents were all 'we'll buy you a car' and now they're like 'get a job so you can buy yourself a car'
dude
i dont even want it
i hate going out
i hate shopping at the mall and shit

if i get a car all i would do is go to my job and go out on errands for you

woop-de-freaking-do

i dont want anything

man you guys

i really dont want a job
everyone has one and you know what?
they dont have time to do shit
they dont have time to spend their money
they dont have time to hang out
they dont have shit

i know i will have to get one eventually but shit
i dont want anything yet

i dont want to have to do anything before i have to
i mean
srsly
i spent my childhood pretending to be an adult and now that i'm here
shit
i never got to be a kid
shit
shit
SHIT

and yeah the job offer my aunts are giving me sounds great
but frick
i wanted to spend summer sleeping and daydreaming because i feel like my soul is being sucked out of me!!!!!

yeah
im such a lazy bastard
but shit
yknow i work my ass off for school and after high school
after THIS

there wont ever EVER be a break for me again
not like this

my family isnt rich
i know i will have to make it on my own

but still i would rather start later than sooner cause SHIT

there is no time for me to rest after this

just thinking about it makes me hella frustrated

and srsly
maybe i have anger management problems or a personality disorder
because i hate driving
and after i can drive
i have no excuse for not doing something
i hate doing shit
foreal

im a lazy bum

not around ppl

but by myself

i want to be a lazy bum

I dont have big expectations for life

i would be FINE as a stay at home mom married to some dude

life is wasted on me

i feel like a failure to modern women
srsly i dont want anything more
than a house with a plot of land, a husband, and a kid

thats about it

if i dream any bigger it would be to travel the world a bit

but srsly

i would only want to do that as a young person

and that is NOT happening

my parents expect me to get through college on some lucky scholarship i will HOPEFULLY land
and i already plan to go to the cheapest colleges around

but what was the point of this rant?

oh right

of course everyone wants money
but i dont feel the need to
get a job
get a car
to get money

and use up my time like that

i have no idea what my problem is

like i dont want to be a part of society or something?!
or i hate people?!

I dont WANT anything
because i dont want to worry about all that shit until i HAVE to!

if i dont HAVE to yet then fuck it!
I dont WANT to!

no one seems to understand this... maybe it doesnt even make sense?! idk this is just how i feel!

I dont want to
I dont want to
I dont want to
i dont want to
I dont want to

leave me alone please

i may smile and look nice all the freaking time
but i hate it
i hate being around everyone and being pressured to do things i dont want to do
i dont want everyone around saying the good things about getting a job and what not

to me everyone looks like they're falling deeper and deeper into a hole
and i dont want to be there too

idek

whats wrong with me?!

I know i SHOULD want

I try to force myself to want

but srsly

I dont want
get away from me

I'm tired
I dont want to hear anything anymore

yeah everything you say sounds great

but for me somehow everything sounds like shit

Saturday, June 2, 2012

Five in the black tour!

AAAAAHhhh! my heart!
re-watching five in the black tour!
AAHHH!
ALL MY FEELINGS!
y'know i'm getting that feeling of 'god i miss them so much!! SO MUCH!' again and my eyes are getting teary and i'm getting sniffely and all emotional!
gosh!
oh gosh!
the way their voices blend together!
and i just watched 'i'll be there' and god! Yunho just killed me because he got a good singing part in that song and i never realized that before and i'm like 'damn i love him so freaking much!'
feel like crying

dear god,
thank you for creating such perfect amazing 5 guys!
ahhhhhh

my feelingsssss

;A;

Thursday, May 3, 2012

Yoochun's going to the army?! already?! What?!!


Yoochun's going to boot camp before Jaejoong?! and he's only going to do service work? and what? i'm all... this happened so suddenly! wtf?!

okay
1- Yoochuns not even of age yet! Jae's not even of age yet! wtf?! ;_;
2- Why did they call him NOW?! when hes so young? (okay kinda the same as 1 but still)
3- Why didn't he move it back any more? I mean Jae moved his to August! D'X
4- How... god i don't even know!!! WTF?! aaaaahh! i'm going crazy! Why now Yoochun?!

my feelings i don't even know! ;A;
WHY NOW?!

Sunday, April 29, 2012

TT^TT Today is one of those days where i just love DBSK so freaking much!! SO FREAKING MUCH! Oh gosh...

jyj...


[Trans] 101221 JYJ Twitter Update

He’s in Busan!
(Jaejoong) Busan’s nice~ (5:33pm KST)
Studying Abroad, Party of Tears, and Luke Skywakaaaaaa
(Yoochun) Ah….. I’m tired…… Aren’t there any happy things to do? Life….is boring (12:46am KST)

(Yoochun) Though it was more fun because we were lacking and it was tiring….. I want to deny everything just for one day.. Like how everyone else does… (12:55am KST)

(Yoochun) Should I… leave Korea for a couple of years?? I’ve been thinking about it for the past couple of months… I could study… Just until I started missing someone like crazy… If it’s possible, I want to go next year… A study abroad that isn’t a study abroad!! (1:00am KST)

(Yoochun) That’s impossible though~ Because there is something here that is important to me…. Because our members are here… I could never do that ….Because I can leave this…as just another wishful thought… I can talk about it like this…. Because if I talk about it… the longing for it lessens (1:33am KST)
(Jaejoong) 
@6002theMicky Yoochun, if you go away to study abroad, I’m going to immigrate to somewhere in space. Don’t be too caught up in your emotions, and with Lunar New Year’s Day coming up, let’s have a party of tears on Christmas day, Yookchun ã… (1:35am KST)
(Yoochun) 
@mjjeje hahahaha^^ It should be okay for me to get caught up in my emotions because we love each other!! I’m always thankful and I love you, Junsu too..(1:40am KST)
(Yoochun)
 @mjjeje If you do immigrate to outer space, send my greetings to Luke^^ Star Wars (1:41am KST)
(Jaejoong) 
@6002theMicky Well I won’t be able to speak their language so you should go instead~ My face is so unique that the people in outer space might actually think that I really am an alien ã…  Yookchun, let’s meet up tomorrow, I suddenly really miss you and Junsu(1:48am KST)
(Yoochun) 
@mjjeje Hyung…I’m…. just thankful…To Junsu..as well…. (2:36am KST)
Nawww♥
(Jaejoong) Ah, I’m happy. To have someone who makes me happy and someone who I can affectionately worry about ^^ Goodnight everyone (1:56am KST)
It’s the people that matter, not the alcohol
(Joon Yeong) @mjjeje @6002theMicky The Blues that we’re keeping for you. Delivery of them is available to your party of tears.(1:56am KST)
(Jaejoong)
 @yeojy I won’t ask a person who is precious to me to deliver that to me. All I want to do is share it with you (2:02am KST)
More Soulmate love (Mostly because Jaejoong’s kind of…drunk)
(Jaejoong) Tomorrow is our fansign event at Gwanju. I hope it is a fansign event where everyone is considerate of each other. Because we all share the same feelings for each other~ I’m really going to bed now, goodnight (2:21am KST)
(Yoochun) @mjjeje Because we now have to hide our tears and cry on the inside^^ That makes me happy yet it wears me out^^ But still, it’s okay!! (2:37am KST)


(Jaejoong) 
@6002theMicky A thank you is not enough to convey my feelings! I love you ..I like these words that I get to say to you every day.. I like these words though I say it so often that we may not be able to feel the sincerity within them.. I’ll see you tomorrow Yoochun^^ (2:39am KST)
(Jaejoong) 
@6002theMicky I love you always Yoochun, I’ve always told you this, right? You say you know when I’m crying and laughing on the inside just from looking at my eyes? That means… we.. have found a reason to keep living for each other rather than just for ourselves.. You, me and Junsu.. And Junsu is also another reason for my existence (2:44am KST)
(Jaejoong) 
@6002theMicky My words are getting a little weird because I’ve had a drink… haha, Anyway I like our members. I tear up and feel frustrated that I can’t tell you this all the time.. It’s difficult to bring up Yunho and Changmin when I talk.. Because it feels like my heart and my words are like heaven and earth.. If you and Junsu were by my side, I might have been like how I was at the afterparty.. (2:52am KST)
Woah deep O__O
(Yoochun) A mirror…. or a mirror that is slightly broken..Or….A mirror that only I can see…. How could you all be able to see it….when that mirror doesn’t even exist(2:40am KST)
Source: [Jaejoong+Yoochun+Other's Twitter]
Translation credits: jeeelim5@tohosomnia.net
Shared by: tohosomnia.net

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Sunday, April 22, 2012

changmin quote

Q: If you were given a chance to reborn, would you want to be TVXQ again?
Changmin: To be honest, my answer in the past was no. I wouldn’t want to live this hateful life again because I had already experienced it once, this was my thought. But lately I felt that this was actually not a bad idea, I think I would want to continue singing and dancing, and be TVXQ again.

Wednesday, April 18, 2012

to sum up everything that happened

2 Yoochun bad rumors

1 Jaejoong bad rumor

Yoochun gets slapped at airport going to Chile

JYJ get stuck in LA for a long time because of flight delays

like thousands of fans from South America came to support JYJ

Changmin's grandmother dies :'( they are on their Tone Tour)

JYJ went back to Korea

Jae had a nervous break down and was sent home after staying with Yoochun for 3 days at the funeral

Yoohwan was sent to the hospital for 2 day of the funeral but was back for the burial

Jae fainted and was sent home with a UV the last day of the funeral and didn't get to go to the burial

Junsu was with Yoochun and so was many other celebrities and family etc.

Jaejoong went into 'hiding' i guess (well thats the way i see it) for about a week (because i counted the days omg i was going crazy at this point) thank god Jae's sisters tweeted about him a little bit

then Yoochun went straight back to working on Rooftop Prince and Junsu went back to his musical playing Todd

then finally Jaejoong tweets and he's suddenly blonde

he stays blond for a week or so but we don't really have a lot of pictures of him with that beautiful hair (only photoshoot was that 1 nii photoshoot) :'(

I find it funny Jae became better after Yunho and Changmin came back from Japan

srsly if you look at the background of Jae's room you see his white ipad?
im sorry but srsly Jae has a black ipad but now it's white
and Yunho's ipad  is white but then after i saw a pic with Changmin and a black ipad??!!




Jaejoongs back to glorious black

and then

Yunho cries on the 2nd day of the Tone Tour (the same day the Titanic sank btw)
and then Jaejoong immediately follows Heechul who followed him back (yes same day)
then Jaejong accidentally followed a fan that tweeted him a picture of our leader crying (ninjas because he didnt follower her for long and he only follows 3 ppl now junsu, chun and now heechul)

Junsus going to have a solo album soon

 Kangin is back btw cry cry crying with those ELFs

Changmin and Yunho's Tone Tour concert went perfect 3 days in tokyo dome with something like 160,000 fans (a record and such <3)

Junsu and his 'clan' tweet with his Elisabeth cast lmao that was definitely a Naruto reference XD

Yoochun! one of the Rooftop Prince episodes was postponed because of the script writers or something so there are 3 episodes this week

Zhoumi's bday, Jessica's bday

and yeah

so stuff!!!

^^
__________________

i think Jaejoong...
i don't even knooooowwwww
his latest tweet is like
'breathing without the one you love = being alive but not living'
people say its referring to Yoochun's drama but even if its from Chunnie's drama it's something that definitely has to do with himself
and he tweeted that right after he accidentally followed the girl that tweeted him the picture of Yunho on the day Yunho was crying

gawwww out of everyone he worries me the most

because he's just not there doing anything

its not like him to stay home like this

and he's becoming so introverted

like he used to have the most celeb friends and other friends in DBSK and go out all the time but idek
now he only follows 3 ppl on twitter
but i shouldn't be so worried because he's probably still good friends with everyone (like hyunjoong etc)
but... its just that he's so secluded... yeah.... i shouldn't be so worried idek
sometimes people just need to be alone
but
Im just worried okay?!
*sigh*

Wednesday, March 21, 2012

no one should ever read this

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I HATE YOU!
i am so fucking worried about you!
please give us some sign that you are alive!
PLEASE!
Jaejoong...
I HATE YOU!
YOU DON'T CARE ABOUT US ANYMORE?
YOU CAN'T HANDLE US ANYMORE?
YOUR FANS ARE WAITING
HOLDING OUR BREATH EVERY SECOND THAT WE DON'T HEAR ANYTHING FROM YOU

STAND UP DAMMIT

STAND UP!!!

why am i crying over you?
i hate you so fucking much
jaejoong
jaejoong stand up

jaejoong

SAY something!

anything

just let us know that your still alive

120321 Lee Seung Hyun talked about Jaejoong!

Q. You were in an idol group ‘Focuz’, how did you decide to choose musical as another challenge? 
A. I had loved singing and dancing very much and before I had a wish to be an actor because my mother was an actress. I thought the genre that includes all these things (singing, dancing and acting) is musical and it is the stage that I can express my talents. I wanted to start at the very bottom as a trainee. But I had no chance at all, then JYJ Jaejoong hyung contacted me unexpectedly. Before I had talked a lot that I want to do musical, then Jaejoong hyung-nim had kept it in mind and told me ‘Why don’t you take an audition? There’s a good role.’ I am really thankful. He is like the savior of my life.
Source: Naver Blog
Translated by: Jeneration
Shared by: JYJ3

He who lived up to the name 'Cassiopeia'

He who lived up to the name 'Cassiopeia'
He who lived up to the name ‘Cassiopeia’
[TRANS] He who lived up to the name ‘Cassiopeia’
T/N: This is a true story.
He was a lawyer, he was always busy.
She was a psychiatrist, she was always free.
He always worked as hard as he could so he would be able to spend more time with her.
She always stayed at home so she could chat on the internet… even when he got back, she’d pay no attention.
She was a delinquent; she smoked, drank and got into fights, she even stole from her father so she could leave home, yet he would always gently run his hand through her long hair, telling her everything would be okay.
He was always on her side, defending her, speaking up for her.
He used to say ‘Lots of girls smoke nowadays, she’s not the only one, it’ll be okay as long as she doesn’t get addicted.’
He used to say ‘Who were the ones who allowed her to take her first sip of alcohol at 2-3 years old? The fact that she drinks is not her fault alone.’
He used to say ‘It’s no mystery that she’s withdrawn and a bit of an eccentric, why would she get into fights if people didn’t provoke her?’
He used to say ‘If you hadn’t tried to give her a new mother, would there have been a need for her to leave home? She would’ve starved to death if she hadn’t taken that money.’
He always sounded so reasonable, as though she’d done nothing wrong.
He was so nice, the ideal for so many girls, but even by the age of 24, he’d only ever dated once. He always put all his time and attention on her; he would hold her hand when they crossed roads, he would watch over her when they went on buses, he would call to make sure she’d gotten home safely at night, and he would watch her eat with a silly smile over meals. He was so filial, yet he’d always fight with their parents over her. He was so mature, yet he was always willing to mess around and have fun with her, to talk about TVXQ with her… he’d always say ‘Grow up sooner so you can marry them, even though it worries me, I’ll be fine with it as long as it’s what you want.’
The two of them grew up together, no one ever looked after them so they looked out for each other. Together, they walked through 20 odd winters.
She remembers the time when TVXQ first separated… he asked ‘Do you believe that they’ll be back?’ She replied ‘I do, because the five of them never told us they’d broken up.’ And so he said ‘When they make their comeback, I’ll take you. First row.’ She told him ‘Okay’.
That was the first and last time he ever made a promise that was never fulfilled. He survived congenital heart disease, he survived the pain of losing their mother, he survived all the difficulties at work. He was like superman, he lived through all those ups and downs… yet he didn’t survive that one car accident…
She remembers clearly the way the car hit them, the world spun, the glasses shattered. It flew towards her, and at that moment, he leaped across to shield her, taking the impact. She survived with only a cut across her thigh… but the accident left him with cuts all over his back from the broken glass.
She thought he’d leave her as she watched him lie on that bed, covered in bandages, his face deathly pale. She was helpless, the room reeked of formaldehyde. She felt as though she could see her mother again, her mother’s leg… her mother’s ashes… there was only one leg… a thin layer in that box of ashes.
She grew more and more afraid, with trembling hands, she switched on her laptop and told a few other Cassiopeia about her fears. She burst into tears when she saw the comforting words that were their responses. Her vision was blurred, but she remembered the names of those fans and kept them buried in her heart.
It was midnight, he’d woken up. She smiled. Everyone told her ‘It’s fine, you should sleep, you’re a patient here too.’ She went to bed, the edge of her lips lifted in a smile. Her leg was hurting less. That night, she didn’t dream.
The next day, she was woken by the shouts of the nurses, they were calling for help. He saw his body covered in blood, watched as the doctors frantically carried him out. She lost it and ran out to follow, disregarding the wound on her leg. She stood outside the operation room all morning, until the blood had seeped through her trouser leg and she was dragged away to have it re-bandaged
When she got back, she saw the doctor shake his head at her father. She didn’t hear the words that left his lips, at that moment there was nothing important than seeing him.
He was awake and saw her go in, with all his strength, he managed for force a smile. Then he said ‘Xiao Liang, I want to listen to music, TVXQ.’
And so, as he lied on his bed, she sat beside him in her wheelchair. They shared the earphones and listened to the voices of 5 angels.
He said ‘You have to be good’ He said ‘Don’t withdraw yourself, Cassiopeia are good people.’
He said ‘To be honest, I’m an unfit fan, I haven’t been to a single one of their concerts, I’ve never bought their merchandise or their albums. I’m not even a member of TVXQ Baidu.’
He said ‘When do you think their comeback concert will be?’
She smiled, a genuine smile. ‘I won’t make any guesses on that, but I bet they’ll sing Stand By U.’
She never got an answer. A moment later, she leaned down to his ear and whispered ‘Don’t leave with any regrets, I’ll be there on your behalf.’
A tear left the corner of his eye as he was taken away.
She sat still, TVXQ’s song still playing… She remained for the rest of the afternoon.
That was my brother, his name was Shen Yi Xuan.
He was a fan, a year older than Changmin. He never bought any albums or any merchandise, he never went to any concerts and was never a member of TVXQ Baidu. He says he doesn’t qualify as Cassiopeia, yet he was listening to TVXQ’s voices as he left me. He told me to guess when their comeback would be. He said that it was a shame he wouldn’t be there for it, but that I should go for him. It’ s hard to believe that a person like this would actually call himself an unfit fan…
I promised my brother I’d go to the comeback concert, but in all honesty I don’t know how much longer I’ll be around. My brother had congenital heart disease and so do I. I could be chatting happily on QQ with other fans today and leave to join my brother the next. Given the current situation, no one knows when the comeback will be. With the way this family is wavering, I wonder if our dream will ever come true, what if I don’t make it?
All I can hope for is that this family will stay together, at least it will give me a reason to hold on. Aren’t we all waiting for the same thing? Why must we fight amongst ourselves?
(omitted)
Finally, I have a selfish request… I hope more fans out there will remember this name. His name was Shen Yi Xuan.

Friday, March 16, 2012

yunjae



http://jijiballs.tumblr.com/post/19171955603/yunjae-little-moments

“Sometimes the YunJae fanfictions are very sad. I wonder if me and Yunho will ever be seperated.” - Jaejoong



MC: Is there any member that you think will be good at helping you remove cow dung?
Jaejoong: The member that I think of when you say 'cow dung' is Yunho.
Yunho: ...?
Changmin: =D
Jaejoong: I heard that Yunho rode cows when he as living in Junrahdo.
MC: ooohhh..
Yunho: Yes, I rode cows when I lived in the rural areas, and I like cow dung.
MC: Oh, so you like cow dung? Would it be okay if your fans sent you cow dung fr a present from tomorrow?

MC: How many bowls did you eat today??
Changmin: xD
Yunho: He ate a lot today too~
Junsu: Rice.
Yoochun: Two helpings fried rice.
Yunho: Gyoza.
Junsu: Four helpings of gyoza.
Changmin: Everyone ate together, so it wasn't just myself!!! >__<